Stayed in Ft. Meyers for a few days after Orlando, and now I'm in North Lauderdale until Friday. Great to get away and visit family.
I can't tell you how great it was to hook up with DB friends in Orlando, too. Putting faces to names and sitches just makes things become more real...and we can certainly talk more than we can all type! A good thing for Nomo and me, who write novels ;0)
Still, GD, Kat, Nomo, Sarah, SD--thank you all so much for the wise words, and gently kicking my butt over some of my hesitation over things I know were not always the best choices. I am happy to say that I FEEL like I made it through a major turning point this week--I have not cried since Thursday last week, when I was still home! The distance, no-contact and your support have gotten me over the detachment-hurdle, I think. The big test will be when we are all home.
Still--I called you on the way down to Ft. Meyers while H was trying to call me. He called three times and paged the phone 4 times. His final message was that he hoped I wasn't ignoring him! I got to my Aunt's, and he had sent an email, too (but wouldn't call her house). It all came down to him being frantic about speaking with the kids. I responded to the email that I was not ignoring him (well, not really--just not responding) and that the kids were having a hard time getting the phone calls to go through because of issues with Nextel. He apologized in another email, and I left that alone. I've had the kids use landlines since.
I am looking forward to the closing of summer, with another trip planned next week. Then, school and work will be in session, and I can get back to living life. I do think I needed the processing time over the summer--I have learned so much about myself and relationships, and it was so heavy-duty, it was good to have few outside distractions. But I was also immersed in it much more than was healthy, at times. So this new transition is welcomed.
I do have to contact the court today to mark an appearance I have to attend on Monday for pendente lite motions, but then things should be quiet for a while. (Thanks again, Still).
Things must be improving--no crying or desperation, slept about 8 hours last night (and was able to take a nap a few times this week), and the PTSS-hand/body tremors are gone! :0)
