Tonight, I told her I will no longer have contact with her as long as she's going to be with this other guy. She hasn't been splitting the cost of the bills like we've agreed 2-3 weeks ago and they're coming in, I'm ending up paying them all. She doesn't have a job and hasn't paid anything, all the while she is planning her next $400-$500 trip to see the OG.
I told her as long as she doesn't plan to work things out between us and is going to be with him, that either she needs to leave or I'm leaving. I was looking at some apartments yesterday so I know where I'll go if I have to. I just can't be around this anymore, I don't feel it's healthy for me.
I'm not sure I have the patience for this, it's too painful. It's like I don't know why I'm fighting anymore, I don't feel like I'm actually making progress. She continues to tell me how she loves the OG and how she feels like we'll never work together. She said that even if it doesn't work between her and the OG, that she still wouldn't want to be with me.
My co-workers always tell me I need to get rid of her and I often feel the same, yet deep down I know if we worked it out that we'd be great together, or so I think. But sometimes I feel like I'm doing all this just to get her back, when she treats me like something she scraped off her shoe. I think about how I could find someone that would appreciate me and all the changes I've made since she decided to be with someone else. She's totally unwilling to even give it another try.
She just wants to have her cake and eat it too. She wants me to support her here at home while she can run away every now & then, toss our son onto me or my family while I work, and go visit her fling in NH for a week. Yet when I tell her to just go there and stay, she says she wants to come back because she loves our son.
I really need some answers/input/advice. I'm at my wits end and am very ready to give up.
