I just typed a long paragraph before i reread your questions.
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Was it an ego thing, and had nothing to do with your W?
I was shutting down early in our r and didnt know it. I resented w for talking me into having a baby before we were married. I really didnt want to, she had one before we met d20 was 2 then. I adopted her after we married. I had hopes, dreams, ideas that i started to hold in. I didnt know i was doing it either. This is eventually the start of my troubles, Me not standing up for what I believed in. essentually communication
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Was it the way the OW made you feel about yourself?
In a new r its new and exciting, you talk, share everything, communicate, feel like everything is perfect and ment to be.
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Were you able to be someone you really weren't? Did you think it would be the chance to start a new life?
I never wanted to be someone i wasnt. I thought it was the start of a new life and it was going to be great. STUPID. When the a is going on nothing maters you hurt everyone and dont even know it.
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Did you play a different role with the OW then you did with your W.
I guess i did. Like doing things i woudnt normaly do that w wouldnt do, I think i had an early mlc. wtf.
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My H has told me that I'm near perfect and there isn't anything he would change about me. So how do you explain that.
The problem is probably in your h not you. If i had known then what i do now i would have gone to counceling a long time ago alone and mc
