I went and met with my atty today, tweeked the mediation stuff a little (which I think W will be fine with), and decided that I will likely be able to sign off on it Monday, as well as the D. I'm actually looking forward to getting it out of the way now too, since I had the last stand talk with W. I will feel okay about moving on after that, knowing that I did everything I could to save the M. Though I know the feelings aren't feelings that I want or have forever, I certainly do feel a bit angry and spiteful toward W and her BF. I'm hurt, and this is certainly where the anger is coming from. I'm angry that she is still so willing to walk away from this M and the family we created together, without truly doing everything she can do to save it. The selfishness of it all really bothers me. I don't want to be angry, but I cannot help it right now. I won't act on it, of course, and I will continue to be consistent with my changes because it is what is best for me. They are sticking more and more, and with time they will be permanent.
BTW (mostly speaking to you, Nomo), I got my tattoo yesterday (Tuesday). For those of you who are unaware, it is my first one. It is a pisces art piece that I found on the internet when looking for ideas. I figured that I will always be a pisces, so this tattoo should be something that I will be content with for the rest of my life. Here's the link to the website where it is displayed link I got it on my right shoulder blade on my back. It wasn't quite as bad as I thought it would be, so that was a bonus (it had its moments though!).
Your turn, Nomo!
GD
p.s. I don't think SD could've seen that quote in your l/r Still because he never came over (or did he...? ).
