The last two days i'm feeling farther and farther away from w. Things seemed to be looking up, now just depressing. She claims to need time to think about her sitch then spends every waking moment talking to om. said she was going to think about it the other night but fell asleep. roller coasters suck. At least emotional ones. She says her decision should be about weather she wants to be with me or alone. not choosing between us. How do i compete with this?
On a positive note kids and i made plans to go to lake yesterday or today depinding on weather, today worked out. asked w to go, she declined. So me, d20, d20bf, d16, d11, and s8 went to lake after work. w stayed home and watched grandson. fil gave us a small boat w/35hp motor, running good now. borrowed bil's tube and skis. Had an awsome evening on the water 30min from home. grilled hotdogs. lots of smiles. Its so depressing coming home right now. w is so distant. sexy but distant. She went to bed within an hour after we got home.
Hard to keep PMA. I have an interview friday with person puting on the class i'm taking. Class starts next thur, evenings 3.5 hr thru Nov. I'm looking forward to getting the most out of it. I have heard so many positives from many people. Can't wait!
Thats my status
Light Switch
Not really tired so i think i'll try to comment on my past a on next reply
Me 37 W 37 D21 D17 D12 S8 grandparents 7/07 boy Married 16 yrs last June 07 Bomb dropped 4/07
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right-for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't", Eleanor Roosevelt
