I can feel all of your pain and after reading this thread I was you last summer.. He would come and get the kids hang out a little bit not really talk but be here and then say something to throw me into a tailspin and I would spend hrs crying.
I don't think I had a single weekend that I didn't cry.
Now I no longer cry over him it happens trust me.
The control issue is huge... very very hard to let go of knowing what he is doing. I now suddenly in the last few months have wondered again it hits off and on now.
I hated that he had a secret life with new friends and "NO" responsibility. I think that bothered me most for I had to keep the kids together and the house and gee... there was no time for me.
So I made time and I felt better and now I realize like this wk I am in a tizzy again and I forgot to make time for me. I am not talking about huge amts of time but little spaces here and there. Paint your nails or read a magazine do a crossword puzzle anything that makes you stop and sit for a bit and focus on something else. It really does help
Patience lots and lots of patience is needed. you will survive remember you are a woman you can do anything you set your mind to do. hb2
m24 yrs h 50 me 47 s 21 s 17 left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06 still gone.............
