Well, S3 is still not feeling great, but I think he's on the mend finally, maybe, I don't know. We'll see.
Things seem a lot better w/ H today. He even called me during his lunch time which he never usually does.
We're both getting really excited about my trip. I can't believe it's 2 weeks from tomorrow.
I haven't been "dwelling" anymore on all the issues. Not too worried about the last OW/EA or what will happen when H gets back as far as she goes. She's not worth my time.
Sometimes, like I've said before, things sneak in that he said or did during the D sitch and it just still absolutely floors me that MY H did/said those things, but . . . I'm just hopeful that I truly can still love him as deeply and strongly as I want to and I thought I did in order to stick by him through all of this. There are days when I wonder. If I just see him so differently now. I think that just may be that he's gone and I'm having to be so independent with EVERYTHING right now.
I asked him the other night if he worried about coming home at all. All the literature says that the "reunion" time is kind of stressful. I can see that. We will have been living separate lives for a full year -- him by himself and me w/ the boys. It will take a lot of adjustment. He said no that he doesn't worry about it. He said as long as we just communicate. I think one of the main things he has learned from all of this is that he needs to communicated more and better w/ me about his needs, etc.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
