You are right, I do need to do this for me. I still get hopefull sometimes, though. LOL
I guess it is confusing, because yesterday he decided he wanted to come by and visit the kids (surprise, surprise OW was at work, so he had nothing else better to do I guess?) and he came by my sons soccer practice. He hung out with the baby and my daughter and told me he is going to try to be there for more Tuesdays as he knows how hard it is to take care of the baby while at my sons practice. Then he came to the house, looked at the school clothes I got the kids, was actually sitting on the end of our bed in our bedroom. Seemed very comfortable there, we talked a little about the schedule and he left.
Today when he came to work and he was getting me the baby, he told me the shirt I had on looked good on me. I have recently just dropped about twenty pounds and it is really noticeable. This is not the first time he has paid a compliment. I try not to read to much into it, but it gives me hope, that although he says there is no chance for us, in his head he is not truly sure and still has feelings for me.
