I'm riveted to this post. Heim, I think I may have posted on your threads before. Our R histories are pretty similar.
Originally Posted By: Heimlich
OT, And, yes, as in most marriages, there were times when she 'did me a favor.' Were there times when she gave in when she REALLY didn't want to. Yes, and I wish, now, that I had been strong/wise enough to stop. However, she also said yes quite often and seemingly enjoyed herself.
On reflection, I've realized also that I pushed more that I should have. For the most part, she returned the affection and enjoyed the pleasure, but I did notice more and more in the period before the bomb that it seemed as though she were just going through the motions. I also wish that I had the willpower to just stop, but I am weak in that area. If we ever get back to that sort of intimacy I will back off when I get the obvious body language.
