oh morgan, how our lives and thoughts are similar!!! I, too, am always annoying H in some way (ridiculous things, handing him things wrong, etc). I was walking on eggshells a lot, worrying about ticking him off, and then fumbling, trying not to tick him off. I can say the A coming out has changed it. A BIT. But here's the thing, I don't try to think of it as "I don't care what H thinks about ___" (add your H's annoyances), but I am going to do it how I would do it.". It makes me calmer.
Don't get me wrong, yesterday when he was sooo mad about my car not starting (and in a bad mood to start with), he honestly asked me to stop looking at him. Uh buddy, I wasn't looking at you, I was looking at my car, wanting it to run so I didn't have to drive yours!!! UGH I pointed it out calmly later, that while stressful things are going to happen on top of our already stressful life at the moment and we have to team up instead of be angry. He agreed, but *SURPRISE* never apologized for his rudeness.
Don't get me started on my dip in self confidence since OW has appeared. Its not good.
Oops, morgan's thread, my rant. SORRY!!! And sorry the night went downhill fast, but it could have been A LOT worse!!