Do I want him back?

[forward]

I don't know, KDK. I have sometimes wondered if my attitude intimidates H.

Nothing to report--our interaction was mundane today. I came home cheerful and happy.

OW still calls the house (I check).

Tomorrow is H's birthday and he will receive a card from D1. That's it.

My 40th birthday is coming up and I expect nothing from H. He got a party when he turned 40. What do I get--a divorce?

I forgot to mention that H's mom called yesterday. Wanted to know who I was on vacatino with. Told her truth (my family). She seems to be quite interested in who I am with. I am not sure if that is to probe for evidence for custody, if H is telling them he wants a D, or if she is hopeful that we will reconcile and doesn't want to see me add to the problems.

H's parents are coming out to see us in Sept. I am afraid that at that point, H will file.