I probably have lost too much weight also, but I do feel that I look better than I have in years...maybe ever.
You know what they say with age comes beauty...and I guess with our S's infidelity comes weight loss....
Journaling: Last night I was crying in my sleep. Literally crying in my sleep. I was woken by the guys I work with from across the pond and I was filled with tears. All I remember from my dream is that I was saying that "I just want my family" over and over.
So my day started off with me being woken up with a problem at work and crying. Not exactly the way I would have pictured it. Now today my head has been in a fog, which I think is from crying, but I was sleeping.....strange...
My W has called again a couple of times today. Again just now to talk to me about what we talked about earlier in the day and she then mentioned that she heard that I saw my friend the other day. That actually lead into her telling me about part of her day on Saturday with our girls.
My W is into spending money on our girls clothes right now. Which makes things tighter for me and stinks because she is planning on taking the clothes with her when she leaves our house. I will have to go buy more clothes for them to have at my house, so I feel I am paying double to cloth my girls. At this time there is nothing that I can do about it because I am paying everything for my girls until the D is final. I don't think my W is really abusing this provision but defiantly taking advantage of the fact that I legally have to pay for everything for them. They are my girls and will provide for them, I just do not like making life after our D easier for my W.
I get my girls the next couple of nights and this coming weekend. Which should be fun. Tonight I am bringing them over to my parents and will spend the night with them there.
Today is also my little brothers b-day. DD5 is excited to give him his present. This means my 30th is coming up in a few weeks, will my D be final by then? I guess I have to wait and see.
