Hopeless, I am so sorry. I just want to give you a hug. \:\( I read your thread, and I was just floored. Of course we all know that some of our situations end in divorce, but I just hurt for you. Except for saying that I will be here to support you through this time, I don't know how to help. I hate not being able to help. This isn't where you wanted to be and it's not fair because you've tried so hard to do it right and have him come home. All you can do now is focus on healing yourself. Know that this was NOT your fault, but a flaw in him. Try every day to be the woman you want to be. He's losing the best thing that ever happened to him, and your husband is a fool.

The grass may be greener, but then again, it may also be astroturf.
~Amy C Brown