It sounds like you've reached a good new place. I might say that if you're afraid (or acting from a place of fear---who isn't afraid here?), then it's not really working *for you.* And the results of that can't be the best.
I feel like I see the path that I'm going down laid out here by you. I'm not there yet, but it's helpful to have an idea of what's coming, and I appreciate your example of handling it beautifully.
