my crazy mess

[christarn]

So, my emotions are rollar coastering. I am so tired. The tears are coming on more than they ever have. He calls one day and says lets do something, then will renig when the day comes. I don't know know emotionally or physically if I can take much more. I am so tired of not knowing in which direction this is going to go. I am just ready to tell him it is time for him to make the decision, either me or not me... I am just so ready for more than this....I'm so tired...and crabby, and tired....ok...done venting...back to work I go!