funny about the rings...I haven't worn them in the last week or so. I just stopped putting them on in the morning. but when H came by to see the kids last week, I did put them on while he was here...didn't want him to read too much into that until I am completely ready to go there.
it feels weird not wearing them now, but I'm getting used to it. I think I'm just testing the waters...seeing how it feels.
he doesn't wear his anymore...that devastated me. I completely lost it on him about it many times. then I found db, and let that go. still hurts though.
good for you for not being angry at him. there is a great song that your statement reminded me of. Its one I think of from time to time, I'm just not completely there yet...but know I will be one day:
Mozella, "Light Years Away"
It's almost like you had it planned It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said "Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time" And what was I supposed to do? I was stuck in between you and a hard place We won't talk about the hard place
But I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life
It's how you wanted it to be It's like you played a joke on me And I lost a friend In the end And I think that I cried for days But now that seems light years away And I'm never going back To who I was
Cause I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life
I think that I cried for days But now that seems light years away And I'm never going back To who I was
Cause I don't blame you anymore That's too much pain to store It left me half dead Inside my head And boy, looking back I see I'm not the girl I used to be When I lost my mind It saved my life
That life seems like light years away Light years away And that life seems like light years away Light years away
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
