well the health problem has become major, i have to take control of it or i'm going to end up in the hospital. don't want to really get into it.
i feel fine at this point about moving forward with the d. i reached my goal of feeling like i have left no stone unturned. i could just go dark, outside of s exchanges, but i need some closure. i know that a piece of paper isn't going to make the feelings go away or stop the hurt and pain, but it is a step. my health assessment points to stress induced and so i have to elminate all stress as much as possible at this point.
looking back, i honestly can not recall the last time she said ily. we argued about this all the time. she grew up without a father basically and had no idea what to expect in marriage and still doesn't. she wasn't ever grateful for the things i did for the family. she never said sorry. i'm saying it is all her, i had plenty of opportunities to work on change for both of us and failed at that. her family is so messed up and is a nest full of bad relationship's and muliple divorces. i don't want to be a part of it anymore, i don't want to deal with any of it anymore. i'm totally worn out, physically, mentally and emotionally. i've reached my end point.
