Went upstairs a few minutes ago and gave my wife my ring. My goal is to still be married to this woman, but it just feels wrong to wear it. To me, it represents our love and is a symbol of our unity. According to her, that's not been present for a good 3 or so years. Over the last few weeks, I've felt like a fraud for wearing it and have caught myself getting angry when looking at it. Nomo, if you're reading this, this is more like the 336 hour rule. I've been thinking about it a lot.
My goals haven't changed. I still want to be married to her.
I asked if I could tell her something. She said yeah.
I'm done talking. I've tried to express the love that I have for you in the best way that I can. Those words were and are from the heart. I'll still be friendly and joke around with you, but, for now, that part of our R is over. I know that I need to make changes to have you in my life, but I'm not making these changes for you. I'm going to continue to try to be a better person regardless of our relationship. If you ever want to talk as a friend, don't hesitate to call me -- if you want advice or a shoulder to lean on, I'll be there for you. I'm still in love with you. I don't know how long that feeling will stay -- 1 month, 6 months -- I have no idea. I know that I'll always love you, but I won't always be in love with you. If you ever feel that this wasn't the right thing to do, please don't let pride stand in your way -- talk to me. Odds are that I'll have these feelings for you for a long time. If I don't, I'll be honest with you. So, please, just call and we can talk if you ever feel that way. And don't feel like I'll rake you over the coals. Were we to ever have that conversation, I would proceed just like if you told me you wanted to make this work now or tomorrow.
AH, poop.
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
