Sometimes, I think I will never find another partner who is whole...whom I can trust completely......whom I have complete faith in. That makes me truly sad. My heart is broken, my faith shaken and my soul shattered. Tonight it just seems so dim.
Bambam, I struggle with this all the time. I was just talking to one of my best friends the other night about this very topic. He said the usual stuff...things like 'this experience will help me grow and be a better person' and all that. But I think the real message in all of this is that we have to learn that we can be okay on our own, and that we don't need anybody else to make us happy. That's the mistake our spouses make - they think these OP will make them happy. And they might for a short while, but eventually they have to realize what we're on our way to understanding - the only ones who can make us happy is us.
I try to focus on the positives of being single: I don't have to answer to anyone. I don't have to feel guilty for flirting with women. I am gaining a real sense of accomplishment doing things on my own and for myself. I have a better appreciation of my family and my true friends. It's not always easy, but it does help me through some of my bad days.
I hope you have a good night Bambam!
M:32 W:26 Kids: None Cats: 2 Together: 9 years Married: May 2005 Bomb: September 2006 Sep: November 2006
