Free falling in a black hole...need help fast

[JustDucky]

It is not hopeless. But it may seem very foreign and confusing to you. Your life has taken a 180, and it is one that you did not consciously choose. I am quite certain that six months ago, you could NOT have imagined that you would be taking a Battery Intervention Class in August. Had anyone even suggested that you would touch your wife in anger... well, you would have said, "Not me!" But that is today's reality. All of us on this board have our own new reality.

Take comfort that it is today's reality. Even though it sucks, and it hurts today, today is not forever.

And even though today hurts, and today sucks, there are still things that we can be grateful for on a daily basis. The Lord gave us another day to live, and learn and forgive. Every day offers us a new chance, at something. Maybe not what we think we want... but always a chance. A chance to smile at the passerby. A chance to appreciate what we do have. A full tummy, clothes on our back, kids that we love, even though the relationship might be strained. Can you imagine if you had NEVER had the opportunity to love a child like you do?

I know it is so hard. But try, really try, to look at something positive, even if it is the tiniest of things.

Today, I finally decided to clean H's shower. (I haven't touched it in the 2+ months he has been gone.) Now I remember why. His shower is a bear to clean! So, for today, I am grateful that I don't have to clean it again for awhile. Granted, I'd give anything for him to come home, but.. for today, that is not a choice I can make. So, I am grateful that it is done, it looks great,and I am free from that burden... for today.