Sorry to hear about the rough phone call. I know how it feels to have all the emotions that you thought you dealt with flood their way back in. I am actually reliving some of them now thinking about how you must feel.
I am not going to say be strong don't show any emotion, because it is OK to cry, it is OK to hurt, it is OK to grieve your loss. If you need it go ahead and have a good cry tonight. I would offer you a shoulder, but I can only try and help with the words that I type.
I and a lot of people on this board can sympathize with how you are feeling - your not alone. Myself and the rest that have followed your story know that you have a great life ahead of you. You just have one more speed bump in your way.
There is a passage in Ezekiel that I stumbled across one day before I had a D talk with my W. It talks about God rebuilding what has been destroyed. Yes, our M's have been destroyed. But he will rebuild us and give us someone special to share our life's with.
