LOL! I know she didn't say that, specifically. I am just thinking that I am going crazy; I do not want to think of him being with someone else; I do not want to be constantly rejected by him; I do not appreciate him being all happy while I feel like a piece of discarded crap. I do not feel like being "his friend". [disclaimer: I am in a really really bad place right now, so I am not thinking clearly. I know that my feelings are running amok with me at this moment.]
This just feels too hard on me right now. I would feel so differently if we had been fighting non-stop; if we hated each other; if we weren't attracted to each other; but instead, I just feel like the person I love most in the world is refusing to put effort into a marriage that could have been amazing with some effort and is throwing it away for the hope that he'll find someone better.
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People misuse the "act as if" phrase from michelle's books. but i think you have a potential proper use of it. "Act as if" him dating you (exclusively) is a positive thing, and can happen. Then, it might. But it WONT, if you don't think it can.
I sorta get that; I don't know how to apply it to real life.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
