My ride on the Roller Coaster called WAW Hell

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Hey not an ex yet. Thanks for checking in but don't be quick to congratulate me. As you can see it's not always smooth. I am definitely facing an uphill battle at the moment. Unfortunately I think a lot of the battle is with me.

So how have things been going? Have you gone to or brought up C again?

Nope, I'm not going to, although now might be the best time! I think I may make an appt for me and not wait on her anymore though. My issues are beginning to raise their head and yell for attention.

For everyone out there let this be a lesson. Things were steadily improving. - I had a moment of weakness and snooped - I'm now trying to recover out of a tailspin.

I had been doing really well about it too. I even saw her journal laying out when I brought some things over to her place. I was tempted, but didn't touch it. I was proud of myself and felt even better about being able to walk away from it because I wasbigger than that. Only to follow up with this, I feel worse than I have in a while because this time I brought it on myself.