Another bad day, just can't stop thinking about W and worrying about counsellor tonight. Nice cuddle and kiss this morning as we both left, but still didn't perk me up.
Will talk to counsellor tonight about all this dragging up the past. It is not doing me any good. W brings up things from years ago and whilst I can now appreciate how she feels about these, there is nothing I can do to change them.
God for a time machine.
I am certain in every fibre of my being that seperating will be wrong for us, the children and everything. I want to stay together and work this through, I know that this will be the hardest task in my life, but one I am willing to do.
How can you move on if you are putting your heart and soul into saving something that is so precious?
Under 2 hours to go now and I am in 2 minds as to whether to go. I want to show to W that I can be strong and stand up for me, but I don't also want to walk away from this.
We still share the same bed, watch TV together and in lots of respects act as normal. I can probably live with the lack of intimacy for the time being, though it will crack me up whenever she sees OP.
Thank you all for your support over this time. I do appreciate the kind words.
