Last night after work I ran some errands and didn't get home until around 8:30. I called a little after 8 to let him know that I would be home soon and the answering machine just picked up. When I got in I said Hi and I could sense that he was somewhat cold to me. I asked "did you eat" and he said "yes" - but with that one word was a look that said: of course I ate, I certainly wasn't going to wait for you when you didn't even call. Meanwhile I am lucky if I get a call from him or if he tells me he is staying overnight someplace.
A friend of mine had an extra ticket to a concert this wed. night so she invited me to go w/her, her husband and some of their friends. I told H that I was going to be going to a concert and before I could even finish my sentence he was like who with? With just such a tone in his voice that I don't even know what it was. Like he was expecting me to say I was going on a date with another guy or something.
Speaking of dating, I am starting to think about that more & more often. I have been getting approached alot lately (must be the lack of rings) and I cannot deny that I like the attention. At this point I am still committed to fighting for the marriage, but as we grow more & more distant I find myself longing for that connection again.
