Thanks for responding with kindness. You're right. And I will give her space. Besides, i dont have a choice due to the restraining order. I am hurting so bad and evermoment seems like eternity waiting. It seems impossible to let go. Especially, our beautiful innocent children. Yes I have a very supportive brother who spoke to her when I was in jail. She told him he that she was tired of me and wanted D and alimony. She refused to drop charges and left me to rot in jail. she also told him that I don't love her anymore which blew me away? It is not true. I was deeply hurt to hear that. A month later, I understand now that she was feeling financially insecure and obviously threatened. I'm sure she tried to tell me about her insecurities but was afraid of my anger and my own insecurites (being lost in my career/our successful real estate business failed) Do abusive couples ever make up? How will I ever get my family back? Yes I screwed up big time. She is going all the way to seek her vengence and now I am due back in court next month. I can't believe the woman I've loved since 1989 is trying her best to send me to jail. I have always forgiven even my enemies. Why is she doing this to the father of her children? I don't want oour children to grow up a feeling of pain and emptiness because she doesn't want to forgive me. I am constantly changing from this crises. I wasn't angry 24/7. I have been a kind, loving and very devoted father and husband. I gave it all I could. I still hurt the ones I love the most. I miss them so much. I can't stop crying. I don't know how to let go of a family I love so much. They are the air I breathe.
