Separated from WAW

[dlt1]

Oh EAA,
Thank you fro the sugeestion. I've been talking to everyone I know. That and writing hear have helped me tremendously. I did begin a journal when this all began. Wasn't something I was good at and did not keep it in any regular way. I like the lette ridea. But, I fear it will not make me feel good. I think I will try and see though. Like you said, if it makes me feel bad, I won't do it again. I have so much I want to say to her, but I've already said too much. I love her, I miss her, I am angry at her, I can;t believe she is unwilling to explore the possibilities a little more. We're both in C, have identified bad points/actions and are working on them. Why can't we get through that? I can't control her idea that love is lost and will not change. At least I have some more time as we proceed to teh D. I see C tonight and will talk about that. Work on me, but wonder what W will work on. She is open to halting everything if she does find herself with doubt.
I am looking forward to Labor Day. getting together with 20+ friends for long weekend. Will be fun, and the nights will be therapeutic as i know I'll be depressed when I think about W not being with us. She'd have so much fun with everyone. Oh well, I will have fun.