ANM, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Sorry that it's hard for you. I am glad that S17 got you some flowers and that your other 2 sons did call you. Yep, just have low expectations of your H for now, for your own sake. I do know how much it hurts though. Hope you have a good rest-of-the day. Can you find something to do that would make you feel happy? A favorite piece of music/song? A favorite movie or DVD or book? Love, PH