please help with advice, new here, H in mlc

[HBT]

Mom,
So where do you stand now, are you both home together. Its so hard to think I'm beginning this nightmare and try to stay positive, to just 'let him' walk all over me and my feelings so to speak. It hurts! SO BAD! I do see results when I act 'as if' so I am learning. What I am VERY worried right now is about his present sitch, it is temporary and it is going to force him to make a more concrete decision to get his own place with a lease or come home. That is my next dreaded reality.

More pressing is our family's annual beach vaca. We leave Sunday! I know, do not (expect) anything, right. Maybe it'd be best if I just let him off the hook ahead of time??? This is crushing me!