Separated from WAW

[dlt1]

Hey guys, talk went back, as I thought it would. Chelle, thanks for the insight. I did not read it b4, but I (tried) to do alot of what you said. Like your straight forward in your face breakdown!
Basically, she is done. Spent the past month thinking if she ven wanted to work on M, and she does not. No connection, lost love, had reservations b4 M but never talked. I validated, I listened, I asked her to explain some things more and mirrored so that I knew her side. Then...as hope was lost and I should have made my exit...I broke all the rules and talked about my feelings, what would a couple months hurt? Why can't she just take time to wrok with C on her issues while I work on mine. On and on and on for about 30 minutes (probably 50).
No dice
Then I asked if tehre was OM...no...I belive her. Asked if she only wore rings around me (she was wearing them when I arrived) Yes, pretty much that was it (though I have seen a coupe pix from ealy weeks where she has them on). I asked about how her new F kind of replaced me. Yes, W supposes that really helped to have someone to talk to. Then, I stopped.
Asked what she wants for us given this sitch. Some sort of friends in teh future. OK, not sure how that will work for me.
Told her I woudl not be the one to take the lead on the D. She'll have to call me to set up times to meet and discuss the division of things. Said I woudl not fight it, and woudl eventually sign a joint motion, but we had to work out the details. And she has to take the lead.
And so it ended.
It hurts and i have been a mess, still am. But I am just on the tip of letting go and moving on. It;s scary, but doable. I never really got to the detached phase. It's basically LRT for me. I see maybe a 5% chance of things turning around. I'm not holding onto that. W does not get how much time it will take for us to tear down everything we've built. I'm looking out for #1 and walking away with my share of our belongings. Nothing hateful, just fair. I have read how this action has worked somtimes. So, I am happy that while I feel like I am giving up, this might be just what is needed. Best thing, i have connected with so many dear friends, and my parents the past two days on a much deeper level. My life ain;t half bad, and it will get better. I adjusted Nomo's goals to fit me. Will probably readjust again this week, with less R focus and more me. I am confident one minute and bawling the next. And i'm just going to let it flow. No holding back. It's about time. Will catch up with y'all soon, but need to step away for another day or two. Wanted to let you know what happened (and she didn't shoot me )
Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. I still need them.