I can relate.

There is a certain rush in "understanding" something unfortunately to fully integrate those things into your life in a meaningful and lasting way takes more than just reading about it, it takes trying to apply those things.

When you try to apply these new things in your old life you can get stuck is places where you don't want to be stuck. Unlike a book you can't just keep reading and you have to work your way through these sticky points.

Both the books you mention are about pretty large amounts of personal development. IMHO this kind of growth isn't going to be instant, smooth or even easy.

I also believe that you can't ignore the powers that lay just beneath the surface, our subconscious and shadow sides as well. Not that you should dwell or become obsessed with these aspects. Being aware and at least trying to investigate them helps in development and understanding of oneself.