Grace, everything has been calm here for a few days. Yesterday H. took me out for the day shopping and to a nice restaurant, and then to a museum. I felt sad the whole time, just sad and down. I think everyone expects that everything should just be ok, and it isn't. Now that the A. is over I feel so down and just blah. I don't feel any love for my husband. I care for him and I want him to be ok, but I don't love him and there is nothing he can do at this point to make things better. Last week I did not get a chance to see my C. but I will see her this week and I am hoping to maybe talk through some of this. I am really bothered by the fact that the OW was in control of my life and I feel as though she is still in control. I think the anger that I felt for both of them kept me motivated for a long time and now that the anger has dissipated somewhat I just feel depressed. I think going away to a nice room and weaving baskets might be a nice break! Lol! Thanks for asking questions Grace. Love, Violets
