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[Have Faith]

Hi All;

Well, I had a good weekend. H is moving out and in with a friend tonight. We went out to dinner Saturday night and I told him that I felt that he needed to move out until he could commited to me 100% and that I needed to start detaching. That I was feeling too close to him. I also told him that I was kinda excited about this single thing. That I wanted what he had with OW. I wanted someone to tell me how beautiful I was and who wanted to touch and kiss me. He got tears in his eyes and said "I don't want to move out, but I will on Monday." "You will probably find someone right away." We had a great evening and he touched and held me thoughout the night in bed.

On Sunday, we golfed and again had a good time. I was very upbeat and laughing. He kissed me several times on the golf course. He has never done this before. We came home and I took a bath. He came in to the bathroom and got into the bath with me and asked me to wash his back and that he would wash mine. Funny how relaxed we both were.

Later that evening he said "you seem like you are happy about me moving out and not being here in the evenings". I said I wasn't happy about it, I loved him and wanted our marriage, but that I needed to start detaching since he was still in a relationship with the OW.

He spooned with me twice last night in bed and touched me often (he is not a touchy person). This morning he e-mailed me at work and told he how much he enjoyed our week-end and how he wanted to golf with me every Sunday and what his plans were for my b-day on 9/1. He said "isn't is ironic that we are getting along better then we ever have and now I'm moving out".

I don't want him to move out either, but I have to get him off the fence. He seems so close to making the commitment to our M and me, but can't stop the communication with OW. He talks about our future and wants to go on our annual golf vacation on 9/7. He seems to be concerned about me "being single". I just hope this doesn't backfire. I have told him that his A with the OW could now be public. He says he has to set boundries with the A. I don't know what that means.

So all in all, while I'm sad, I'm being strong and happy. I want him to see the best that I can be and a happy smily face when he leaves tonight. Someone he would want to come back home to.

Wish me luck.

Faith