CVA, First of all I would like share a little something with you about my sitch, if that is OK,
A few days ago me and my W, really talked, and she said to me it's been 6 months and nothing has changed, you are still without a job, and living with your mom, and I had to tell her yes, while that is true, there are things that have, Am I yelling at you? Am I trying to get you back, am I letting everything that has happened bother me, like it did when this first started? And to that she had to say no, then I told her then there is your answer, Things have changed, I've changed, I'm not the same person I was, I will never be that person again, I told her this, whether you realize it or not, has been a wake up call for us both, Even though I didn't want to wake up, I had to. Even though you thought that you could make me wake up, by telling me it was over, you didn't, It didn't start happening till I decided to do it. That is the gospel of my sitch, the underlying truth. Nothing happens till, someone wants it, and makes up their mind to make it happen, whatever their way of doing it is, it is still a change. I know that you know this, just wanted to remind you, You do give great advice, as I try to do the same, I realize that mine isn't as good, as yours or some others on here, but if we aren't practicing what we preach, then what?
Believe me, every feeling of anger, hurt and pain that you have ever felt, is justifiable, what you do with those feelings makes you the person that you are, Just like my W chooses to run, fight, and complain, I choose to face them, learn from them and let them go, I do get down, quite often, they keep coming back, but now I know how to deal with them, and I learn new ways every day. This is after all, a journey, a sorry and bad one, yes, but one to learn from, none the less. Take the test, learn from it and you'll pass, You will be all the wiser in the end. Peace to you, Take care.
