Hello all, My wife and I have 2 beautiful kids. 2 yr old boy and 8 1/2 girl. Life was pretty good until real estate business failed and stressed of raising a baby boy, homeschooling and financial crunch kicked in. Last year, oour arguments began which led to yelling and screaming and eventually (I began pushing and shoving-clearly my fault). Career wise, I froze without a skill and my wife ended up working and I became Mr. Mom. I was always ashamed of it but did the best I could at home. Cook, clean, laundry, yard ....watch kids full time. We grew more and more distant each month. We both knew we needed a new skill. so I stepped aside and she went to school online for Accounting FULLTIME. I was so stressed out and her parents rarely ever helped with the kids even though they were retired and sat home all day long just five minutes away. Anyhow, our frustrations got worse and one day we got in a big fight over going her cake decorating class. I desperately needed a break . She studies all day and I hardly see her. She pushed my buttons and I snapped. I lightly slapped her on her cheek and threw a small plastic bowl at a lamp which bounced off her back shoulder. All in front of our kids. I slammed the door to the spare bedroom and shut my self away for two days feeling horrible. I realize the effects of how terrible "angry" behavior. I realized that I projected my own past into my marriage. I was abused all my life. Verbal and Physical beatings almost every day. Parents fought, everyone around me fought, threw things and hurt eachother. I swore I would never do that to our childredn and yet it still happened. 3 days later, she had me arrested over breakfast. She snuck my daughter, son and her mother out the garage before the cops came in. I did not even get to apologize to her and say goodbye to my kids. I called her from jail to beg for forgiveness. She hung up. I was out 24hrs later now facing a criminal charge/misdemeanor. A week later, she filed a restraining order and in court she slammed me in front of the Judge. I kept comming back with how sorry I was and did not want to lose "us" our family and etc. I wept and eventually she did too. She admitted to the judge that she called the cops 3 days later cause her family told her to do so. In conclusion, I feel horrible. Her controlling parents have moved in and I have been kicked out like a piece of trash. her big sister who recently divorce also encouraged her. I was there for her divorce all the way. I feel betrayed. I'm ashamed of my behavior. I have always loved my wife unconditionally since 1989 (married in 1995)and was always the one to make things up. She is super strong and never forgives. While I was in jail she told my brother she wanted divorce and alimony. Now she is facing forclosure, controlling parents and 2 kids. I screwed up big time and want to correct my behavior. But I cannot contact her at all due to the restraining order. I love my wife and kids so much and can't stand being without them. I don't want to lose my family. She hates me and her family is feuling the fire living in the house with her. I've signed up for Battery Intervention Program which starts today. Am I finished or can anyone throw me a life saver?
