You are probably still in a withdrawal period but hang in there, it will get better. Detach. Focus on yourself. Be patience. I know it's hard but hey, that's the only thing you can do right now.
I'm starting to think that focusing so much on our own selves is exactly what got us here in the first place, as with most couples in similar situations. So, I understand the necessity for self cultivation as a constant process of life, as I lived alone for nearly a decade before getting married, and though I learned a lot about me and had some fun, I have grown in more ways, and to deeper levels as a result of the challenges posed by my R with my W. So, I know my W better than anyone else, and I am the only person who has spoken to her Dr about other things she is going through, and as she is out there running from herself and from me, and trying to drown out all positive reasons to return, it seems the longer I wait and don't have contact, the more I think that SOME positive contact initiated by me may not be such a bad idea after all? I know her well, and she is probably thinking I am fading from her and the desire to get back together because I stopped pursuing entirely. She is in a very self-destructive place and pushing her other friends and family away with her anger. All DB'ing aside, I am worried for her hitting rock bottom and feeling like I wouldn't be there for her, even though she says she doesn't want anything from from me anymore now. Any thoughts???
