Frustrated and Saddened #2

[stewart10]

Well, I had a great time at the wedding. None of my friends knew we were having problems, and I don't think they know anything now. My W acted normal around them. However, she was constantly getting up to walk outside and talk on her cell. Bothered me, but I did not let on to her that it did. After the reception we were all in the hotel van on the way back when it was decided that we would stop off at a bar on the way. She said she did not want to go, and that would have meant in the past that I would also not go. But instead I said see you in a while back at the hotel. Went out and got back about an hour later.

Just stepping back a bit, I was in the wedding so I had to be up there on Friday night for the rehearsal. I had asked my W to take Friday off work so that she could come with me. She said she was not able to take time off of work right now. So, I said that is okay and I will go up without you and see you on Saturday. Anyway she wakes up this morning as I am getting ready for work and tells me that she is going to be taking off work tonight and going up to Albany to hang out with a girl she used to work with up there and go to a concert. So frustrating. But I say okay, sounds like fun. Enjoy.

We have not had a R talk since the beginning of July (when she said she needed to move out, but hasn't really done it). She basically stays out when she pleases, although most of the time, she stays at home. We appear to just be in limbo. Nothing of note really getting better. Nothing really getting worse, except for a couple days out in a row here and there. Our anniversary is next monday. Not expecting (or at least) trying not to have any expectations of that day. Hard to be disappointed if there are no expectations. I do have a bit of a dilemna about the anniversary which I will post about later.

Overall, not a great R weekend (nothing bad-no fights or anything like that), but I had fun nonetheless. It was good to be around some of my buddies and not think about my situation for at least a while.