There and Back, #2

[SallyM]

thanks all! and I'm starting to crack up at the great grannie panty rebellion that is going on in my thread. lol. I have this vision of you all hanging out of your windows as you toss them aside and yelling, "I'm mad as hell, and I'm not going to wear these anymore!" lol.

hey, and along those same lines, H wore those damned tighty whiteys for YEARS and did I complain? no, not really. maybe tried to steer him in a different direction a couple of times, but never pushed or anything. again, warts and all, I didn't really care (well, they were good for a laugh while on, and hey, didn't matter once off). I should have known something was wrong when he bought cuter undies.

I think its true, too, btw, that we had fun partly because he wasn't there yesterday. it was nice not to have to deal with him if the kids whined, which they didn't, for the most part, one or two moments only...and I think its because I deal with them differently when they do.

now for today. goals are to be upbeat when/if H calls. he's up at the lake with friends of his for the next couple of days (he took this week off of work). so I know they are having a great time, and suspect he brought ow, although he told me he wasn't. not sure I really believe it, but it doesn't really matter, does it?

have a lot of housework to do today, and the boring stuff like grocery shopping and other errands. but also going to hit the gym, and take the kids swimming, so should be a fun day as well. think we'll join up with some friends for swimming...will make it nice.

plan to finally start the book my therapist lent me (the river within) and really need to get working on my journal...I've neglected it for a week now, not good. and going to start DR (I have DB, just bought DR).

hoping for a good day. hoping to work toward getting my focus off of H. hard to do for me. it is. I keep bringing it all back to him, but I guess I'm still not sure what I should be doing...letting go completely (which is what all the concrete has shown me that I should do), or should I keep trying to save things? I just don't know that's possible anymore, I think its me being stubborn and holding on too long.