Hi all! Its been a long time since i have posted,in fact i had to re register as i had forgotten my pass word. So many new people here it makes one sad.And to think of all the other people out there that are going thru this and have no idea about this site.
Well things are still moving at a snails pace here. I have seen signs of my old H coming thru, but they are still long spells inbetween. I get excited when they do happen and pray and hope that he is moving closer to the end of the tunnel. He still looks like heck but i still love him. Hard to believe that it is going on 3yrs that he moved out.He is still with the rivertrash that he moved in with. There are more and more talks about him seeing the light about her and her son, but he can still not detach from that mess yet. I know that i am soooo tired. I have thought about just throwing in the towel and walking away, but my mind and heart won't let me. The few times that i have even thought about moving on and finding someone else, the only person that comes to mind is H. So i quess i am stuck waiting for him to emerge. He is thinking about others more and more, and when he says that he will do something, most times he will. He has been coming to holidays with the family, birthdays, 4 of July, our anniversary, and helping the son-in-laws with different things.He talks about us doing different things together,about opening up a business together but they talks about building the things for the store at his castle. I just agree and let him rattle on and encourage him when he needs it. There are days when he asks how he got himself in so much money troubles and then there are days when he is so proud of all the things that he has bought on credit.
I don't know how much longer it will be before he comes out but i keep praying that it will be soon. He is still sleeping all the time and i know that there is no peace at his castle from what he tells me in his converstations. Just not sure how he is going to finally make the final brake. I wonder if and when he does, will he come home or will he look for someone else? How do you tell what the outcome will be?
So that is where i am, still not anywhere close. Karen58, Mermaid, Snodderly,( Snodderly, please tell Sting that i thing of her often too and i said Hi,maybe this skiddish colt it starting to grow-up) i think of you often and include you all and everyone here in my prayers. I'll be back soon to write more. Huggs and Prayers, Sonni
