Forgot to mention. At the end of the conversation, I asked her for a hug. She was sitting in a chair and I was sitting on a mattress on the floor. She bent over and gave me a hug. I asked for a "real" hug. She kindof sat cross-wise between my legs and gave me a hug for a good 2 minutes. She put her head on my shoulder and left it there. Felt very, very nice. Told her this is what I missed the most in the last 3 months. Before her, I never was real touchy feely with anyone. Still not, only with her. (Kid hugs are nice, but not quite the same.) May be imaging it, but I kindof let go a few times and she stayed a bit longer than I expected. Maybe it felt good to her too.
After I told her the last bit upstairs, I was about to leave. She said she'd give me a hug. I said, you just finished telling me that my touch makes you cringe (oh yeah, something else she said earlier), I don't want to hug you if you don't want to. She gave me a look like I was manipulating her feelings or something. So I said, but of course I'd love another hug. So she gave me a full body hug for about 20 seconds.
Doesn't really change anything, but it did feel nice.
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
