what an amazing recount of your work there, it is very humbling, you all are always in my prayers)))))))
I understand how sometimes some postx could bring you down, for a while I stopped reading posts about As since it fanned the dying flames of the memories of my H'as A (a year later, op came back, just found out the 2nd PA was going on for the past 2 months, so i'm now fighting those monsters..but AHA! I have the weapons now)
As of yesterday I saw my sitch as hopeless, my H is not a whole person and has gotten in yet another sad web of lies and deceit, tearing appart all the love and trust I had put in him. I despaired, because I have been trying to "fix" us and him. I have given this fight to the Lord and I pray that he gives my H meaning to his life, if you can't love yourself how can you love others? it's something he has to learn.
Nothing is impossible to the Lord, and one way or other you will find peace. I faced the D sitch yesterday, (what if...) and after I faced it I was free from the gut wrenching aprehension I was under. If God is with us who shall be against us? i'd be a blablering crying idiot by now (the deceit was specially cruel) but I have peace now. You are in my prayers FLTC, one way or another you will be OK.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
