Sara, I havn't confronted her about pics yet, didn't want to ruin the weekend.
Well she just walked up to me and i let her read what you wrote and what i previously wrote. Apperently she deleted them fri before we left to get them off computer. Said she was trying to send them to om. She didnt like the fact im talking to a girl on internet.
Weekend update Strange but true. Left for camping friday after work 2-3 hr drive d11 and her cousin 11 rode with us. I asked w not to sleep so we can talk. she did sleep for only .5hr. We talked about misc stuff and r stuff. I learned more about what lead to this, what she is feeling now, and shared how i felt before this and how i feel now. Overall good stuff. 5mi from campground i told her that i have to refrain from touching her or holding her hand but im still here for you. W thought we would sleep in two twin beds in cabin. kids rearanged and we slept together in a full sive bed. I took the wall so she could feel cieling fan. We talked some more each had seperate blankets. And then she touched my hand that was by my face, I held her hand till we fell asleep. I was rock solid through all of this. The next night we went to bed and she was closer to middle of bed so i slid my arm under her pillow and put my other arm on her waist, but still kept my distance. We might have talked a little that night also. At this campground there was little to no reception on cell phone so i dont think she talked to him much. I guess i did walk in cabin once while she was talking to om. On way home she wanted to sleep and i wouldnt let her again. We talked about misc stuff not r stuff. When i couldnt think of next topic i asked her what she wanted to talk about next.
Overall I believe a good weekend: great time w/kids, good conversations w/inlaws, and i feel beter about w.
After we got home she went for a walk to talk to om and im back in spare room. Prior to this weekend she said she is so torn, i said i am too, why she asked, i said weather to move on or stay and fight for you, the one that is hurting me. In one of our weekend conv. she said she is so confused, I didnt think you had this much fight in you, and when she started this she didnt want to be with me, if she stops now she will still wonder about him. also since she has been back she hasnt had time to think to herself about it, tried last night but fell asleep.
