Big hugs, BeingMe. Not sure I understand the thumb thing, though.
Anyway: Sumpin's up. What it is is anyone's guess, but I'm pretty sure there has been yet another shift on W's part.
I took S to an attraction next state over today, bout a 4 hour round trip. He did really great, talking and playing and joking the whole way there and back, no complaining or anything. Had a great time at the attraction, too. I'm really proud of him, but there isn't anything new about that. W apparently went to her dad's today, but I'm not sure of the signifigance of that. Much earlier on in this whole mess, she was pretty close to throwing in the towel and trying to work things out (IMO), spent the day at her dad's getting filled up with this "it's so much better the second time around" crap, and closed up on me again. However, I've heard rumblings that, since the truth of what W has been up to has started to come out, her dad and step-mom may not be quite the divorce cheerleaders they once were. Anyway, when I took S over to MIL's house, MIL took him inside, leaving W and I outside. Together. With no one else around.
Nothing happened. We just talked about S's weekend, stuff like that. She was throwing off some weird vibes, like maybe she wanted to hug me or something, but I just don't have a clue what is going on in her head right now. Goodnight call was equally wierd, definitely got the sense that she wanted to say something but couldn't/wouldn't.
This is really hard for me, as I have always been the "mover" in our R. I fear that if I don't do something, nothing will ever get done, but I can't shake the feeling that she has to be the one to make a move this time around, or she will just end up blaming me again for anything that goes wrong.
Let's face it, though: She's probably going to blame me even if a meteor hits her car. Cynicism, anyone?
