I think the one thing that I'm having the hardest time with is the fact that I don't see my H the same way anymore. Even before, when I knew about the other A's, I feel differently this time after this last EA & the whole D sitch. I guess probably b/c I never knew that MY H could/would do the things he has done and said the things he has said to me. He just doesn't seem like the same person to me anymore. I know that we need and will rebuild a "new" R/M, but it still just kind of bums me out. I guess I just need to stay positive that, once he gets back and I have the opportunity, I will see him differently, yes, but in a more positive light once I truly see his devotion to me & the family on a more consistent basis and w/ him actually here daily.

Got a few new dresses today for my trip to see him. He likes me in dresses/skirts so I found some cute sundresses. He bought me that one, as he calls it, "spank my a$$" outfit over there, so taht's waiting & then I also got a really cute camo (yes, camo) little shorts & cami set. I'm going to go shopping for some new undies & bras before I go. I can't believe it's only 2 1/2 weeks away. We're both very excited. We're going to go see a palace in Seoul and some other things before we actually have to go down to where he is working to stay for the week.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10