The thing I'm struggling with most is mentally letting go. I have made changes (hopefully for the better), I am doing GAL activities. The friends I had went with H and so I am making great strides in making new ones. I know I'm not letting them in though - that's always been a downfall of mine. I think I've become a better mum but my children would most likely disagree with that!
I don't know if H is noticing any of this. He only speaks to me when he really has to and quite obviously isn't comfortable in my company. I've stopped contacting him at his request and also b/c when I did his OW responded which really wound me up. Lack of self worth has been a lifetime problem for me so I guess that's why I'm struggling so much now (and I'm not a pretty sight either!)
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
