Maybe God was putting these things - this information, these heartbreaks in front of you to make you stronger and to force you to move on. And now, you needed that last little push over the edge to really move on and put him behind you.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.