my crazy mess

[Gone Dancin']

I'm guessing you're meeting with him as I type this, so all I can say is that I'm sending positive waves your way, and hoping for the absolute best!!! It seems that his wanting to talk to you is a good thing given the recent text messages and such.

I'm rooting for you so much, christa! Good luck!!! Let us know how it goes as soon as you can, are able to, etc.

GD

[christarn]

well nothing too exciting to report...met at a local pub and drank some beers! Which was a total 180 for me, i haven't drank a beer for 2 years...he was floored!!! usually drink something foo-foo!!! so anyway...we just sat there and talked about daily life...nothing exciting..then we went to another pub..and had a few more there!! we did not talk about R/M/or D...I stayed very happy, calm, and smiling thru the whole thing...ended up at his place for more cocktails....overall it was a good night, he smiled a lot. I feel like I am "home" for him...or what grounds him...if that makes since..and he needs that in his life...i just wish he needed it more! thanks for reading, and for all of your support...hugs to you all!! christa

[Bakit Ngayon Pa]

Hi christa,

That's good news. You're doing stuff together again. It's a start. Hopefully many more positive things will come your way.

Good luck!

[christarn]

BNP...thanks for the positive reinforcement...I needed that

[Gone Dancin']

Christa,

I think that was a pretty darn good night and that you did everything right! You kept your PMA, kept your emotions in check, let H dictate the tempo of things, etc. Heck, he even took you back to his place for some cocktails! That is huge in my book, and the fact that you didn't bring up the R/M or D allows him to feel safe in interacting with you, and it will bring him closer to you more and more. I'm very proud of you and the way you handled things!

I feel like I am "home" for him...or what grounds him...if that makes since..and he needs that in his life

This very well could be, and if you continue to give him time, space, and patience, he may very well decide that he wants this to be permanent again. Keep being a fun, easy going, and great woman that he would love to be around, and I am quite sure you can win him back.

i just wish he needed it more!

If you continue doing what you did last night with no pressure, I'm sure he will!

GD

[christarn]

Thanks GD....;) I'm hoping it continues!! will keep you posted!

[christarn]

hey guys...so now is when I become frustrated, haven't heard from him since weds...arrrghhh... I sit and contemplate what I did and how I acted...is their something that I could have done differently....why doesn't he contact me after. This is when I start to have those feelings....like I should just make him decide between me and the life he is choosing to live (pretty sure is still dating and enjoying bachelor life)....this is when my patience are really tested...and again....i know...patience, patience, patience....just needed to vent!!! off to work I go...yippeee!! 12 hours of fun and joy!!! I guess it sort of keeps my mind off of this...not really...!! hope all is well with you guys!! hugs, christa

[christarn]

So, my emotions are rollar coastering. I am so tired. The tears are coming on more than they ever have. He calls one day and says lets do something, then will renig when the day comes. I don't know know emotionally or physically if I can take much more. I am so tired of not knowing in which direction this is going to go. I am just ready to tell him it is time for him to make the decision, either me or not me... I am just so ready for more than this....I'm so tired...and crabby, and tired....ok...done venting...back to work I go!

[Gone Dancin']

Hey christa!

Stay strong, and if you know you're not ready to be done yet, don't give him an ultimatum. How long has it been since he knew you wanted to reinvest in this M? Time and patience are your best friend right now -- remember that. If there hasn't been a D filed yet, I would say you are still in good standing in a better place to save your R/M.

Keep working hard!

GD

[christarn]

I filed the D in Jan...but nothing else has been done...I told him in May we should try again. I just get frustrated easily. I know I need to learn patience...my emotions are just getting the best of me...i've been so tearful lately...thanks Gd..you're such a good supportive person!!