I just want all the LBS's here in MLC who fear this happening to them...I just want to say, don't worry.
I was never actually married and every time I prayed to God, the two of them actually came closer together and more shocking news came my way. In fact, I was feeling so strong this week that I said, okay God, I'm ready for the next piece of news and then here I get it, even though everyone else on the entire planet seems to have kept it from me for 7 months, I got it now.
I do feel like God is here for me. I just think that though I really love this person and really value what we shared and don't know how I will ever replace it... I just think that when you get married and the vows are real and you include God in that process, that there is something special there. Something that I did not have. Perhaps a bit more safety among spiritual warfare.
I just wanted everyone to know that I don't understand it or know why things had to be this way, but I do think this is the way that God wants it.
Those of you with children who are married, I think that God is truly on your side and will watch over you and I pray that your marriages will be restored.
In my case I have the feeling that my prayers have been answered by having him being taken from me. I don't know why that is. I don't know why I've had to go through this pain. But I accept it. I've learned what I can from it. I have given up and given my life over to God over and over and over again.
Today has been a hard day. I went to the movies and every friggin kid I saw...but that's that.
TMW, I know you have been wanting to lose weight, one good thing about this is I will probably drop those last ten pounds over this. LOL
Cinderellaman, NickyF, Mermaid thanks for taking the time to post. I really appreciate it.
Better days to come. I will never live with someone before marriage again and any marriage I do have will include GOD.
