I'm starting the journey home!

[Heimlich]

i'm starting to fear she into something that i don't know about and its not an affair.

I'm guessing you're suspecting drugs? May well be, but you may be jumping to conclusions prematurely. What if she really is this confused? Could be as simple and as complex as that.

I think you're right, for your own sanity, you've got to step away for a bit. However, I suspect you're still in love with her. Steel_box had an interesting take on his feelings, something to the effect of taking those warm, loving feelings for his W and locking them inside himself in a steel box, to retrieve when things go better.

You'll be OK. Better than OK.

And congrats on the new job.

Hang in there, Atlas.

BD