Thanks a lot CVA, You know I've been wondering about that, since it happened, and finding your thread, and seeing that you've been there/are there, was a Godsend.
The bad thing is that, now I am in the phase of starting to watch the new life she so desperately wanted fall, and I think we both know it is coming soon, and it is going to completely devastate her, This is very hard to do, So the more I see her, the more I want to comfort her, and hold her. The closer I get to her, since as you do know that the contact since this all started has been so non-existent, I want to make the most of the time that we do get together, and I never want to let her go, again. But I know what you said about being slow, that is the only way to continue to build things up, so that is what I am going to do, I am going to let her come to me, physically, and hold off, my stronger emotions of wanting to touch her.
I agree that it should come natural to her, but like you said she has to think that she is in control, I am treating this as we are friends, nothing more, yet. But deep down I know that we are. I guess you could say that we are both holding back, a little, now, not knowing exactly what the other wants, but the truth is deep down we do. It really is kind of like when we first met, This whole sitch, reminds me of it, so much, when we met, I lived with my mom, and here I am living with my mom, when we first met, I didn't have a job, and was trying to get into school, and here I am still looking for work, and trying to get into a school, Man, talk about Deja Vu, I guess the past really does repeat itself, sometimes. Take care.
